be still my soul

yesterday and today i had a church song in my head. "be still my soul". whenever i have a church song stuck in my head, i pay attention to those words. i know that the Lord is having me to remember something. the only words i could remember from this song were "be still my soul, the Lord is on thy side".

on my way to church this morning {brian goes to his church meetings in the morning by himself. that is why i said on "my" way to church} i popped in the cd that had that song on it. "be still my soul, the Lord is on thy side." once at church i looked at these words in the hymn book while the sacrament was being passed. i needed this.

                                     Be still, my soul: The Lord is on thy side;
                                       With patience bear thy cross of grief or pain.
                                         Leave to thy God to order and provide;
                                         In ev'ry change he faithful will remain.
                                       Be still, my soul: Thy best, thy heav'nly Friend
                                            Thru thorny ways leads to a joyful end.



this week has been such an...anxious week. i have been full of anxiety. i hope to be able to share with you all the reason very very soon. but having these lyrics in my mind, helped me to be put it at ease. for the time being. my mind will run wild sometimes and start working up again in full force even after i have been told that it will all be ok. but to look at these words, to know that no matter what happens in our life, the Lord is on our side and will be with us as long as WE do our part. the Lord never leaves you. only you can leave the Lord. i take great comfort into knowing that no matter the outcome of a situation, the Lord is there. was there from the start and will be through the trial and at the end.


another song that popped into my mind after church was "i believe in Christ". a while back, the fourth verse really struck me on our ride to the temple. i cried in the car. i cried in the temple. i had a very spiritual experience that day, just thinking of that fourth verse. so then today after church, those words came into my mind. i played the song and the tears welled up. such power are in these words:

                                                 I believe in Christ; he stands supreme!
                                               From him I'll gain my fondest dream;
                                             And while I strive through grief and pain,
                                                 His voice is heard: "Ye shall obtain."
                                               I believe in Christ; so come what may,
                                                   With him I'll stand in that great day
                                                    When on this earth he comes again
                                                       To rule among the sons of men.

these words are so powerful. i know that all of our dreams and desires will come forth. if not at this time, it will not waiver my testimony of Christ. if the outcome of a wonderful dream come true changes to a sadness and disaster....that will not shake my faith in Christ. i believe IN CHRIST. i believe in our heavenly Father's plan for us. i know that our heavenly Father and Jesus Christ care about us, love us and root for us. they want us to be happy. so if disaster does come upon us, it wasn't from them. it was from the choices of others. instead of falling in despair, we can lean upon the Lord for strength and help right on to the next step to make that dream come true. i gain my strength from Them and from my dream that i have always dreamed. to me a mother. for me and brian to be parents. we will be parents. no matter what the future holds.